Good News Mama!

A little over two years ago, I was crying to my cousin because I had just found out I was suffering a miscarriage. Not only was it a miscarriage of a baby whom I was losing, but it was also the loss of a twin that Elianna would not grow up with. And when a person miscarries a twin early enough, the baby doesn't come out the way a typical miscarriage happens...the baby just gets reabsorbed into the mom and into the twin. "You should really watch This Is Us. The first episode is about a miscarriage too, except the character played by Mandy Moore loses a triplet." my cousin told me through her tears, as she comforted me since the wounds were so fresh. There are a lot of things within the show that I do not relate with: I never lost a dad to an unexpected death. I do not have an adoptive sibling or was adopted myself looking for a birth parent. I do not have an addiction to eating. But I could relate to miscarriage, and I do plan to adopt one day, so that's as far as ...

My doctor called me two days ago to discuss the results from the special 20 week anatomical ultrasound (which examines the baby's body parts close-up, specifically to determine if there's a birth defect or a possibility of Down's syndrome).  As I type this, I am currently 24 weeks pregnant. The fact that she called at 6pm on a weekday was a little bit alarming, because that means something was up. She told me, "The baby is ok, but your placenta is very low. It is right next to your cervix, which means we cannot do any pelvic exams or physicals. If you ever have to go to the ER in the next few weeks, let them know your doctor said nothing is allowed inside of you. Also, we need to reschedule another anatomical ultrasound so we can see if the placenta has moved away from the cervix. Otherwise, if it places itself over your cervix, you may develop placenta previa, and we will take it from there." I remember learning about placenta previa when I was in my LVN progra...

When I first started this blog, I wrote about the highlights of our wedding day. That was a little over two years ago. And now, here I am, about to write about one of the most monumental days in our lives: On Valentines Day 2014, Kevin and I found out we were PREGNANT! I still can't believe it. I really can't. I am now ending off my 13th week of pregnancy, and am technically in the second trimester zone. Because of my PCOS, because of all the blood tests, two of my past OBGYN's told me to that I wouldn't be able to conceive naturally. Honestly, there is something very soul-crushing about being told you are not able to do what every woman should be able to do. I have never prayed so hard in my life...there wasn't a day for the past two years that I didn't pray fervently for the ability to one day bear a child naturally. Well, I can say I prayed for something else harder than that, and that was for my to-be husband. I prayed for my husband since I was 19, the ...