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what a week

feeling so blessed! i'm SO happy i passed the NCLEX so i never have to retake a test like that ever again!! and i got my application to apply for the nursing license more quickly than i thought i would, so i should be getting my nursing license in a month.

these past few days i've been working full-time in irvine and i really empathize with my husband a lot more. he works full-time AND does school full-time! this will be his life at least for 3 more years, before he gets his bachelors degree.  i already was exhausted just coming home from work to make dinner and pack our lunches (and it really isn't even that hard! i just wanted to sleep lol). it was the first time i passed out as he was praying for us before we slept last night. woops! imagine my confusion when i opened my eyes and it was day! i told him i was tired because i was the weaker vessel. HA! ;)

in a sense, it's times like these i'm glad we don't have a baby yet. my mom has been throwing fits saying "ANAK YOU MUST NOT GET PREGNANT OR ELSE YOU WILL HAB NO MONEY! ANAK LISTEN TO ME I AM YOUR MOM" and then i change the subject, and she claims i'm disobedient. i guess it doesn't help that me and josh keep laughing at her. all i say is "leave and cleave, mom!" but she doesn't understand what that means, and when i explain she's still worried i'm pregnant as we speak to each other.

but really, i just am convinced that God won't impregnate us for another year or two at LEAST. i feel like i'm not ready to be a mom, and i feel like kevin doesn't have enough energy to be a dad lol. i mean, i understand the implications of marrying another person. the moment you say "i do" to being a wife and a husband, it also means saying "I do" to being a mother and a father. we had counseling sessions about this before the wedding day. i could be wrong and in 6 months write a post saying "we are expecting!" on blogger. but in the meantime, i just feel like it's delightful just having each other and working and being tired together. it's also nice having this experience of working and making money. all my life i've been dependent on someone for money...my dad and his child support, and then kevin for like the past year. but now i can also have an income for a full-time job! yay! many of my married girl friends hate working and i can see why. and i am POSITIVE when i am pregnant i'd want to stay at home, but for the time being, i'm not pregnant, and i am just happy going out and coming back home and meeting my husband after work. it also is a HUGE PLUS that i really enjoy being around my coworkers! they are just so sweet and pleasant to be around. i love it!

life is wonderful. i can't help but feel so loved by God ..it's very humbling to know He's so thoroughly involved in my life. it's like...He not only reads my blog, but reads my heart. HA. bad example! but kinda helps? err.

Tonight I'm excited to see my husband and double date tonight with one of his groomsmen and his wife! fun times!



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