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education, work, family

So many things have happened since the last time I posted on blogger. For an update regarding the accident, let's just say it's costing Kevin and me a lot of money...my gosh! I just can't believe how much of our money is gone. It's kind of freaking me out but at the same time ...not really. This will pass eventually. But I really wish it would just be over with already. And then of course we both have work, but only one car. Surprisingly it's been working out pretty well. I only work part-time at the moment, so I drop off Kevin at work in the morning and then pick him up after I'm done, which is about 7pm. He just stays at work for an extra hour and a half doing homework as he waits.

My life seems to be bogged down with education, work, and family. Being raised in a very Asian environment, those three things only seemed to work chronologically: Education first, then work, then have a family while you work (but only after you paid off your loans and have a mortgage down for a home!). Never in my wildest dreams would I be doing all three at the same time, and I can see the disadvantages of doing so.

Currently, I'm taking two Early Childhood Education classes at Fullerton college (6 units this semester), working part-time as a teacher's assistant at FECC Learning Institute (about 15-20 hrs/week), and also have an on-call job as a clinical nurse for Universal Wellness-Immunization Network. I'm feeling extremely blessed because I enjoy doing all three! The classes are really cool because I have absolutely no background with children's education so it's all fresh and exciting, and I can't help but think "I am going to have to do this for my future children!!!" Haha, I mean, the goal is eventually (hopefully by next summer/fall) becoming a Pre-School teacher. But the REAL LONG TERM goal is to be an amazing mom. Sigh! Can't wait! And then of course working with children has taught me a lot about how to deal with kids of all ages. Being a clinical nurse is great too because the money is nice (In one day of nursing, I made as much as money as I did in a week's worth of working with kids...) So sometimes when I'm overwhelmed with the money situation, I'm like "MAN IMMA JUST DO NURSING! PEACE OUT KIDS!" But then I'm like..."Ohh...but I love the kids...I need to help them...Those military men and women can take care of themselves with those needles." lol. It's really bizarre giving military people needles because some of them are like SUPER TERRIFIED. They can run into combat, get knocked out and beat up, have their arms blown off, but can't deal with a wimpy needle! One man started to whimper like a baby and all I could do was talk to him like he was one of the kindergartners I take care of "Oh...it's okay sweetie..it will be done in a second." Awkward! But it came out of me naturally! HA. I'm also really blessed because the only reason I have these two great jobs is because of networking----through two wonderful people at my church: Bethany & Thomas! Apparently you can't get a job at either of places unless you are referred personally. I love both jobs! I'm also getting more opportunities to work as a nurse in other clinics through my nursing school, but I think I'm kind of overwhelmed with what I already have. No more work, please! But the money is tempting. I can see why God warns a lot of us to stay away from the love of money (Hebrews 13:5). Gotta check my heart, knowing He provides for all things we need as a fam bam (Matt 6:33 baby!)

It's also taking a toll on my home life. I come home really exhausted and various times this past few weeks we just get take-out food, and I feel super guilty. Or the laundry isn't done or isn't folded. Kevin's always so gracious because he mentions how I'm busy with school and work too, but I'm like AHH but I need to take care of this house...but then the house is so big! AHH! It's really humbling to not have all my ducks lined up in a row. Gosh. Times like these I'm glad God hasn't blessed us with a baby yet because I wanna finish up and just pay off my loans and enjoy the work that I do outside of the home. I don't know how moms who work full time every have time to take care of the home, for real. 

I am so far from a Proverbs 31 woman it's kind of ridiculous. I remember when I was single I'd be like "OOOOHHHH I can't wait for the challenge to be a Proverbs 31 woman! i'm gonna dote on my husband and have a wonderful home and clean immaculately and have the best dishes for him...." and now I'm like, "Oh, we're home. Can I sleep now?" My baaad. Haha.



Who knew that married life would be so good? Didn't know life would be the way it is now, but I'm so blessed and happy regardless!  :) Couldn't ask for a better life! Can't wait for what else is in store for us.

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